She seeks and she seeks.

She seeks and never stops seeking. It is not that Hannah has any feelings of comtempleting towards her beautiful religion of Islam.

Indeed, Hannah sees and she sees it as clear as the crystals that Islam is the light. She witness that there is no God, except Allah and Muhammad, peace be upon him, is the last Messenger of Allah.

Hannah believes in the six pillars of imaan and the five pillars of Islaam. Hannah acknowledges the obligation of prayers and fastings. Hannah acknowledges the need to help the others . Hannah acknowledges the importance of reading the Al-Quran.

However, Hannah thinks and she feels that there is an element which is missing. An essential element. An essential element that needs to be delivered in each and every seconds of Hannah’s life. In her actions and her words.

As Hannah closes the book of Ihya’ Ulumuddin, she praises her Lord a few times. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. All my praises only to You, Ya Allah. Hannah begins to understand more. Hannah sees a new way of Islaam. A pure way of Islaam than before. It is Ihsan which is missing all way long.

What is exactly Ihsan? Ihsan is, as qouted from our beloved Prophet, peace be upon him, is to feel Allah’s Existence, to do and to say as if we sees Him, and if not, as the Prophet saw mentioned, He sees You. To lower down our gaze to everyone besides Him. To see and believe and yakin towards Him. To submit everthing to Him. To know and believe that only Him, and Him alone we pray, where else humans are just the medium. To focus only to Him.

Allah. Allah. Allah. Allah. Allah. Allah. Allah. Allah. Allah. Allah. Allah. Allah. Allah. Allah. Allah. Allah.

Until it comes to a focal point that there is no existence except His Existence.

And now, for Hannah, she is trying to live life with remembering Allah, every minutes and every seconds. To do her every day prayers with Ihsan. To read the Book with Ihsan. To do her work with Ihsan. To walk with Ihsan. To talk with Ihsan. To eat with Ihsan. To drink with Ihsan. To remember and keep remembering Allah when she forgets, which is always happening.

Ya Allah, make me always remember You.

Ya Allah, make my actions, make my words, make my silence, all because of You.

Ya Allah, I seek Your Guidance and I seek Your Forgiveness.

Please look at me with Your Mercy and Compassion, as I am not able to remember You always and I am one of Your servants who always forgets You.

Ya Allah, thank You for giving me the knowledge of Ihsan although I am always forgetting You, Hannah prays and she prays with Ihsan.

-Ana